don't bother flying without those wings;
dear, you'll break a lot more
than my heart.

you'd fall and crash,
just as I did,
when our breaths and hearts first came into sync.

i remember;
cigarette ashes stained fingers,
slowly, surely rubbing the inside of my wrist.

nicotine tasting lips,
a euphoria caused more
than the shared carcinogens.

eyes bruised just below, ever so
never leaving mine
never breaking contact, closer and closer.

husky, low voices
rustles of paper, they fly like angels
land on the floor, dainty and quiet.

i wondered--
silence me once more,
brush them out, they fall to the floor.

up, up, up,
away from now to nevermore;
your breathing in tune with mine,
the papers from your desk stare at me,
guilting me, imposing and white.

dawn breaks and you fly.

my heart's still with you,
tucked in your back pocket;
like an after thought.

pause, rewind, play.

it's night;
the city is blind.
we're back to square one.

I love you too. lies.